Nothing cheers me up like a critter comrade.

I hope life was as easy as a two year 1 year-old who can cheer up and light a room with a simple noggin song.

Cheering up is not that simple these days.
I can tell my pretentious smiles are taking its toll on me.
They're sincere but they're worthless.

A laugh and a pleasant conversation with someone are luxuries that I couldn't even afford nowadays.

What's wrong with me?
I have changed. I'm completely changed.
Where did my enthusiasm and loudness go?

Everyday I realize that this is not what I signed up for.
I came here to live my dream.
Everything worked the other way around.
And it's killing me.

I've become this weird person who just wants to be alone for most of the time.
I'm getting acquainted with myself, and realized that I'm not a bad company after all.

The only way to lessen this is to let it out.
To whom? Most of the people I care about are back home.
I have to move on right? I have got to find people to care about again.

I'm excited to see two of my college friends tomorrow.
After waiting for so many months.
I get to go out with friends I soo dearly missed.

Forever hopeful that everything will be alright.
Forever thankful for my loving family.
I still have my faith, so I'm all good.