9th of April, 2015.
This is my blog so I'll make a big deal out of it. lol
But now that I'm finally here, it doesn't feel that bad to say the least. I can lie about it, but what's the point?
Facebook is for happy stuff. Like the living room and dining room of social media. Consider this blog as my bedroom. 8 years! I can't believe its been that long since my first post. This place is like a warm hug I'd always seek when I want to vent some things out. And the best thing about complaining here is that it never talks back, it just listens. And sometimes, that is all I need when humans are busy, or humans say things I don't want to hear.
These are my realizations on the eve of my 30th birthday. God, it stings so bad to just even type it. 😒
Disclaimer: I have my period coupled with the unreasonable mood swings as I write this. It could be just my uterus talking. Having said that, pardon me for my emotional outbursts in parts of this post.
I have realized that...
1. ..I couldn't complain to the kind of life I've had to live. I am blessed in every way. I am only thankful for the countless blessings I get to live everyday. It's been a blast and I couldn't wait to see what happens next. Okay one thing, maybe a thicker wallet wouldn't hurt. lol
2. My behaviour is erratic like Monica's. But I found my Rachel, and that's very rare. Thank you for toloerating me, nini Jini. It's been so different since you left somewhere. But hey, look at us surviving and all! We're more than water, as solute as blood... I miss you!
3. .. that bad decisions make great stories. I am still currently waiting for the great part. lol
4. .. that coffee time with friends and all the laughter that goes with it after a loooong tiring day is like a luxurious bubble bath! Like waking up to a nine hour uninterrupted sleep. You just feel refreshed and ready to battle for the next round.
5. .. that live plants and fresh flowers do make you feel good. Suddenly I am in awe with what gardeners do. Badass!
6. .. that writing will forever be my therapy. (Btw, why do some people read and write it as teraphy?) lol Notebooks, random postcards, unsent letters, little sticky notes, at the back of my hand, drafts.
7. .. that kidney diseases are scary. Hi doc Caro.
8. .. that 30 is actually a good place to be at. Not too young nor too old to still go on dizzying adventures and try silly things too. Old enough to know what's right, ang young enough to not know everything.
9. ..that distance is just a space in time. And there's no such thing as 'walang forever'. It's there, waiting for you to finally come to your senses. Waiting for me to finally take that giant leap of fate. For all of us who yearns for it.
10. .. that I've blessed with so much love, I could not ask for more. And I only have the Almighty to thank for that.
11. .. that my nephews and nieces are my best investments. lol
12. .. how people can continuously amuse you. The depths and heights they go through, and then you see them smiling. It's practically like magic.
13. .. that Maroon 5 was right. It's not all rainbows and butterflies its compromise.
14. ..that I have the best family in the world. And I love them to pieces.
15. ..where do broken hearts really go. In her bedroom, with her iPad, writing in her blog. 😂
16. ..that food in any kind in all its glory plays a very important part in my mood and well-being. lol
17. ..how it gets easier to pray at daytime. That's why I take my time to talk to Him at night. I cherish the silence, i embrace the calmness, I speak with all my heart. I feel like he just listens more at night.
18. ..how communication is very important to all kinds of relationship. To your family, loved ones, long lost friends, even strangers. Hi, how are you is easy and should be done regularly. And even just a smile can mean everything to someone.
19. ..how proud I am of my prosfession. How we are paid to help and inspire other people is simply amazing. And to hear each of our patient's journey and be inspired in return is even more amazing. I've become a better therapist and a wiser person for the past years because of them. I can only hope I am better with remembering names though.😁
20. ..how beautiful The Philippines is, how beautiful Iloilo is.💕
21. ..how werevolve around the universe and not the other way around. It took me years to finally realize that. And life started to get better as soon as I saw the bigger picture and just learn to breathe deep that you are just a ver tiny dot in this universe.
22. ..how I easily attach myeslf to words I read, movies I see, songs I hear, conversations with strangers about hope. It will evetually consume me and eat me alive.
23. ..that my parents are the best like... ever. Watching them grow old is just like watching the best rom-com movie that was ever made. My mom's the funny one. lol
24. .. I've had my share of things I've done that I'm not proud of. But I am getting by. I am learning from it. I've asked forgiveness about it.
25. .. that my could've beens and what ifs could either be what took you so long, might as well, I can't believe what I've been missing out on, it was never right to begin with, it was not worth the wait, thank you for the second chance. It's still up to us, it's up to me.
26. ..that learning a new language is exhilarating. It changed me and opened up in eyes to see more beautiful things. I appreciate my tongue more for I could speak another 3000+ foreign words to add to my vocabulary. The human mind is vast, and wonderful, and beautiful altogether. Du bist das bests was mir je passiert ist. Es tut so gut wie du mich liebst. 💕
27. ..that I'm blessed to have traveled a bit and have seen quite a few a paradise and skyscrapers that this worldcould offer. El Nido, Palawan tops it all. Chicago comes closely next! Then New York. 💕 (any reason so I could post this picture over and over again. lol :p)
28. That turning thirty and having your PMS at the same time can be catastrophic. lol
29. .. and that it is beginning to make sense. All of it.
30. and that I refuse to falter in what I believe or lose faith in my dreams. Because there's a light in me that shines briiiiiightleeeey. Yes they can try, but they can't take that away from me.🎧
A year wiser today.
Thank you dear God for everything.
Thank you dear friends for the birthday greetings.
But the greatest of these is love.
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